i want to dabble with higher things. burroughs and the a to z woman. the stories and mental fucks you must be able to recall and retell in the right order, the correct, justice-giving way...lying. and lying right. not stuttering or hesitating or shrugging. you knew the question before they asked it and you knew exactly what you were going to say and all the backstory. all the minutae and bullshit grain. every speck. you knew and no gaps or seams were visible in the lines of your speech. they were unable to see your side-change. your turn around and the moment of pause. mentally. you were ready hours and years prior. all for this. all ‘til now. you fuckin knew and were not only ready, but ready to be ready for the next query...and the next. mere hours into the world, you were ready.